Nosy Neighbor. 0:12

My guest this episode is talented porn actress Christina Sage. Christina, thank you for coming on today.

Christina Sage 0:19

Of course, my pleasure.

Nosy Neighbor. 0:20

Tell us a little bit about what got you into the industry.

Christina Sage 0:24

Well,

Meet Christina Sage

Christina Sage 0:24

I started, let's see, do you want the long story or the short story?

Nosy Neighbor. 0:29

Let's go long story.

Christina Sage 0:31

Okay. Well, I started at the age of 18 selling my used underwear on a fetish site called Panty Deal. A friend had approached me in college. She was like, you know, I I

From Panty Sales To Camming

Christina Sage 0:44

just saw this uh this episode of Orange is a New Black, where, you know, the prison mates, the women were selling their used underwear to guys. And I was like, that's a thing. She's like, yeah, there's a site. We can sell our underwear. I was like, well, if you do it, I'll do it. And that's how I kind of got my foot in the door, you know, with sex work. And it was a slow progression um into you know, slowly showing my face and doing nude videos and becoming more comfortable with exposing myself, you know, my my naked body. And eventually, you know, I was doing all of it online. I was um I was doing full videos showing my face, uh, custom videos, that is, but some nothing had leaked yet. And then one day somebody writes me on Panny Deal and they're like, Hey, do you know that you could, you know, make X amount of money on likely you could make X amount of money on uh this site called Chatterbait, a campsite. And I was like, there's no way. And he was like, Yeah, you just have to show your face, and you know, there's a lot of traffic on the site, so you know, you gotta you gotta accept the fact that you're probably gonna get leaked, exposed. And I was like, Well, I don't think it's worth it. It wasn't worth it then, and after a couple of months, it it then seemed worth it. So I signed in and I uh became a cam girl, and I I viralized one day when I did a recording in my mom's law office. That was kind of like the start of

Going Viral And Fallout

Christina Sage 2:25

my Christina Sage journey. I get a call from my ex-boyfriend, and he's like screaming at me. He's like, You're trending on Pornhub on Reddit. Why is my girlfriend all over the place? And I was I felt so guilty and like such a bitch because he wasn't okay with the whole thing, you know, me camming, and I kind of did it without telling him. And I just remember my reaction, like you know, I was already down, right? I had already been exposed, and then I have my boyfriend bitching at me, and like all my friends are shit talking me. It was just like, oh, I feel like crap. So it wasn't a good start. I spent years trying to take down all that content, but I eventually embraced it, and this was in 2024, 2023 that I just embraced it. I was like, you know what, this is what I want to do. So I so I did it. Um, I started doing content, collab, collaborations with other people. This is after making an OnlyFans, which happened in 2020.

Control In Camming Vs. Mainstream

Christina Sage 3:31

I made an OnlyFans during COVID. So I uh I I started doing collaborations and after doing the collaborations with a lot of porn stars, you know, I just became a little bit more acquainted with with the industry, with the people. It's a little bubble, you know, it's a small world, and I just felt like it was also normal. And you know, I I just started doing porn and I I enjoy it. So, but it took it took a long time because of course I cared what people thought about me. It's a very taboo industry, so you know, it took me a very long time to not care. I won't say that I don't not I don't care entirely, you know. There are days that I'm like, hmm, you know, I don't like the fact that I'm judged, but I I will say that it's a lot less um, it it doesn't really consume my my my mind as much as it used to.

Nosy Neighbor. 4:38

What was it like going from I mean, as a cam girl, you controlled the content, you controlled everything. With porn though, becoming an actual porn star, uh you lose a little bit of control. Was that a concern for you, or is that something that felt like a natural progression?

Christina Sage 4:58

No, I completely, yeah. I I love camming for that reason. It's you know, I am my own boss, I open up my computer, I you know, I stream whenever I'd like to. If I want to kick somebody out of my room, I can. Whereas with mainstream porn, you have to abide by the rules, you know. Um, that is not your content. You are not able to sell that content. That content doesn't belong to you whatsoever. So it's very much it's of it's another world. You are often bossed around, not not in a bad way, but like you're told what to do, you know.

Nosy Neighbor. 5:43

It's a job.

Christina Sage 5:44

It's a job, yeah. It's a job.

Nosy Neighbor. 5:47

What was it that made you take that leap then to go from someplace that you had control over versus it being more of a job? Was it just the financial aspect? Was it the notoriety? Was it the this was my progression that you know this is the next step that I need to take to further my career? What was it that that made you decide to give up a little bit of that control in order to become more of a mainstream porn star?

Christina Sage 6:13

So, well, I noticed that with porn, with porn stars, they tend to have a little bit more of a celebrity status.

Exposure, Marketing, And Status

Christina Sage 6:25

I've noticed when they came. So I I've noticed that my numbers have gone up a little bit. I mean, when I say quote unquote celebrity status, you know what I mean? It's just you you become a little bit more of a public figure, a lot more eyes are on you, and people get a little bit more excited when they say, Oh my god, it, you know, I've gotten a lot of, oh wow, I just saw your scene. I can't believe you're on chatterbait. And I'm like, Oh, I've I've been on chatterbait for like nine years, you know, like this isn't this isn't new for me. I have noticed that it has helped with, you know, just exposure and just putting myself out there, marketing myself, and that's kind of what I use mainstream for mainly out of my three sources of income. I would say mainstream is my least favorite. Camming is my is my most enjoyable quote unquote job.

Nosy Neighbor. 7:33

I will say in doing research on you, I do see a difference in you as far as comfort, relaxation in your performance. I noticed one of the ones that I I saw was you with uh Jack and Jill, which is uh a very recognized Cam couple. And there just seemed to be a much more relaxing, just in my casual opinion. I don't know how it was for you, but there seemed to be a much more casual film environment than watching a particular scene that might have been more professional.

Christina Sage 8:09

Yeah, no, absolutely. Um, I think that the amateur vibe is it's less stressful. Uh, I do seem to get a little bit psyched out and like nervous. I also seem to they they I've gotten a couple of roles in in mainstream uh scenes where I do play the nervous girl. I just by chance. But I mean, I do play a good nervous girl because I am nervous usually because there's a lot of people watching

Amateur Comfort Vs. Studio Nerves

Christina Sage 8:45

you, you know, and there's a lot of people in the room. Um my first shoot was was uh it was a Slade shoot. It was a lesbian Vixen's lesbian site. And I remember there was like I think eight people in the room, and I had never experienced anything like that before. I was so nervous. I was so nervous.

Nosy Neighbor. 9:11

How controlling is the industry as far as your looks and everything? Is there a lot of pressure for because you always hear the stories of like news reporters where the woman will cut her hair and everyone freaks

Looks, Pressure, And Niches

Nosy Neighbor. 9:24

out the next time she appears on the news because her hair is short? Is there a lot of pressure in the industry that says, you know, you need shorter hair, you need longer hair, you need bigger boobs, don't touch your boobs, you need no tattoos, you need tattoos, you need pubic care, you don't need pubic care. Is there a lot of that in the industry to kind of control? Is there people saying you need to do this or that?

Christina Sage 9:48

I would say compared to, for example, modeling, the modeling industry, absolutely not, no, because there is, you know, everyone has their niche. It's you can you can look like uh anyone, you can have a bunch of tattoos, there's gonna be a group of people who are into that, you know what I mean? It's very uh what's the word? Versatile. So I don't think that there is a lot of pressure, but that's what people say, you know. I do think that the most popular girls I've noticed, right? They do tend to have fake tits, they tend to be a little bit more curvy, they tend to have to do butts, right? They they are done up usually, you know. And not that this is a bad thing, or I'm not this is this is just what I've noticed. So I have felt a little bit of pressure to like, oh, maybe should I get my moves done? You know, should I maybe get my lips refilled or something? You know, I sometimes I I think about it. Should I gain weight, right? Should I, you know, I I do get a little bit self-conscious, but I think that ultimately it's I think it's maybe your sexual performance, but then again, to each its own, right? Everybody likes different things. Some people might like the girl who likes mellow sex, who's passionate. Some guys or girls might like to watch, you know, people having really rough sex, getting railed. Uh it's think of anything there's porn for it, you know what I mean?

Nosy Neighbor. 11:35

Exactly. Now, when you get approached for a scene, what is that process like? When when they say, you know, I let's say I want to hire you, how detailed out does it get as far as what's

Consent, Scripts, And Set Communication

Nosy Neighbor. 11:48

allowed, what's not allowed, where the the come shot's gonna be, how much of that is broken down where you know exactly what's going on?

Christina Sage 11:59

So everything is explained. Um, they are very usually very, very clear on mainstream sets. There are certain companies that I do appreciate a lot more than others because of their like you know, they're they're very, very communicative and um you know, they don't want to leave you uncomfortable, they don't want you to feel uncomfortable. I have had I have played roles and shirt shoots, but only roles where I have to play the uncomfortable girl because that is a fetish, you know, the intimidated uncomfortable girl doesn't know what's going on. Uh I personally don't like that, but that's just my that's just my opinion, you know, to to each its own if we're practicing it safely. Um then I don't see what the problem with consumption is, but I digress. Um yeah, I would say that mainstream companies these days are doing very good at a very good job at um you know communicating to the talent. And I mean, it's not like we have much of an option when it comes to how the role will play out. Sometimes I'll throw in some at some ideas if it's like a a skit that's just kind of like hey, let's uh let's come up with a skit right now, you know, like there's no lines, it's just kind of like a right there and then kind of situation, then sure the talent can throw in whatever ideas they have. He has, she has. But I would say that for more serious companies, they like to be very much in control.

Nosy Neighbor. 13:51

Is there ever a time where you're you're given a script and you're just like, what the heck is this? Because I I I came across a clip of yours where you're basically an upside-down

Creativity Limits And Wild Sets

Nosy Neighbor. 14:04

table. Your your legs and arms are extended and your back is up and out, so you're basically arched uh off the ground while sucking a guy off. And I just I can't imagine that being something that feels natural. It looks kind of creative on a porn, but when you get something like that, are you just like what the heck? Or is it doing a backbend?

Christina Sage 14:32

I don't remember this. I was doing a backbend on a bed, right? Yes, yeah, that was a bang shoot. That was actually my idea.

Nosy Neighbor. 14:42

I mean, because it's I maybe you do it in your real life, it just seems so unnatural and so weird. It looked visually interesting, but I can't imagine that was something that was fun or comfortable or something you do in your real life, is it?

Christina Sage 14:58

No, not at all. I'm very much a performative person. Um so with my personal like sexual life, right? Like with a partner, I would never do something like that. It's but the thing is the things that I do with my partners, um, well, with a partner, I'm monogamous with a partner, I would not do on set. I am an exhibitionist, I like the attention, I like the you know, the all eyes on me. So if I have the, you know, it's kind of like a narcissistic thing, I guess, to an extent. But um, you know, like if I if I think of something creative that, oh, maybe this is gonna like, you know, really get get a lot of eyes on me, get a lot of views, like, you know, I'm gonna do it. I like, I like to perform, I like to be seen. It in the beginning it did make me nervous, I will admit, but that's just because I wasn't used to it yet. But once I got used to it, I loved it and still do.

Nosy Neighbor. 16:05

And then one of the new things that is kind of coming out in the last few years is free use, is a term that's being used as far as porn, where the rules seem to be a little bit more relaxed. Uh, the dialogue gets a little bit worse because people are seemingly improved. Is it as as l free as it it sounds, or is it a little bit more scripted than than we're admitting?

Christina Sage 16:35

Free use is it's all scripted, I would say. The free use that I've done has all been scripted.

Nosy Neighbor. 16:43

So it gives the illusion that anything can kind of go or anything can can happen, but it is still kind of regulated and stuff like that.

Christina Sage 16:52

Oh yeah, absolutely.

Nosy Neighbor. 16:54

Yeah. I'm a little depressed, but at the same time, it seems to be a little bit more cornier, but at the same time it's nice to see something a little bit different. Do you think there's a lack of creativity in professional porn?

Christina Sage 17:08

A lack of creativity in professional porn.

Nosy Neighbor. 17:11

It always seems like it's the stepdaughter, stepfather type thing. It's the the you know, stepbrother, it's uh there isn't it's I mean if you look at if you go to a porn site and you look at their thumbnails, they almost all look the same. One of the sites that I like to check out is uh I think it's called Estes, and it's a a site run by females that's very different in their approach to things. It's a little bit more creative, but is that something that you kind of worry about? Because a lot of your stuff, as far as the professional stuff, it's relative I mean, there's not much a huge amount of a difference in what you're doing. Does that ever get you know monotonous?

Christina Sage 17:58

Um monotonous monotonous monot sorry monotono monotonous. Um no, I would say that actually the creative scenes don't get released because they're too they're too out there. I'll give you an example. I um I don't know if I'm allowed to say this because it wasn't released, but I got hit up by X company, let's say it's uh, you know, we'll call it Jim's company to film at a funeral site. I thought that we were joking, you know, we're using, we're being sarcastic here, like, oh, it's a funeral site. You we made up it's someone's backyard or something, right? No, we pull up, it's a funeral home. The crew had rented out the company had rented out a funeral home, a privately owned. I mean, I think that all funeral homes are privately owned, um, or most. And I was in shock, and I'm the lead girl, and I'm like, wait, this is actually quite disrespectful. Like, this is you know, like, wait, are we actually gonna film in a funeral home? They're like, Yeah, what do you think? What did what did you expect? And I was like, Oh my lord, okay, well, let's do it. And we did it. I was fucking on the casket, like I saw my first dead body. But that was after the scene was done. That was after the scene was done. It was definitely the most wild thing I've ever done. Wow, yeah, it was crazy. The the dead body was rolled out as like you know, 30 minutes after the scene was over, we were just getting ready to leave, but they just rolled out

Relationships, Jealousy, And Detachment

Christina Sage 19:45

a dead body, and I was like, what the hell? Like it was crazy.

Nosy Neighbor. 19:51

And how has it been? I mean, you you talked about that you have had conventional relationships. Is that something that has been, you know, how does it that work life balance fit? Is it has it been difficult to find you know, romantic partners, or is it been you know relatively easy to separate the two?

Christina Sage 20:13

Before, so I I started doing mainstream porn while I was in a relationship with somebody who was also in the industry. Unfortunately. Well, actually, very fortunately, that did not work out. So that was an easy relationship to maintain because, well, in like in the sense that we didn't judge each other's work because he collaborated with other people, I collaborated with other people. I didn't seem to mind his his um his working with other people. But I think that's because I projected how I felt about my collaborations with other people, with with coworkers. Very detached, very professional. I'm not experiencing an orgasm, you know, I don't have to get there. I I'm performing. I really am. And I it's you know, it's I don't know if it's a good thing, if it's a bad thing. Really, I I mean there's many takes on this, but um you know, it it is what it is, and I do have to dissociate a little bit during it. So I did did not ever really feel so threatened or intimidated or jealous of his collaborations with other performers. And also, you know, I was confident in our love, but I did notice that he did seem to get jealous of when I did it. And upon reflection, I now understand why, and I think it's because he was enjoying his work a lot more than I was, uh, and therefore projecting, you know what I mean? But before that, before I got into mainstream porn, OnlyFans camming luckily, it never was a problem for the people that I had dated. Um, usually because they'd end up doing it with me and they would get a they'd get a cut. So you know, they were they were doing it too. Thanks to tango. So you know, there were there's one relationship that I do feel guilty about where I do feel like I maybe somebody who's older than me, you know, been he has free will, he had free will then. But at the same time, I do feel like I may have pushed a little bit, and I I said, you know, if you do this with me, you and I can get a car, and we'll we'll choose the car of your liking, you know. And he was Catholic, you know, he he didn't want any involvement in porn, but we're only fans, you know, amateur amateur porn. Um but I guess the car enticed him because he you know there's a price tag on anything and everything. Um people say that I mean it depends. Right? Like I there's no price tag on like killing an innocent person for me, but with porn there was a price tag, right? So yeah, uh I do feel guilty about that because I feel like after we broke up, he was just upset that a lot of our porn had leaked and he's from a small town and everyone knew about it, and you know, he's he did all of that, and like you know, now what is there to show for it besides like porn of us on the internet? So I feel bad, yeah.

Nosy Neighbor. 24:24

And going back to these collaborations, when you're you're doing a collaboration, you reach out to someone or they reach out to you, you know, as far as like let's say again, going back to Jack and Jill, what is that like and how much of it is is scripted or laid out because the scenes I saw with you three felt very natural. What was it scripted? Was it gone over of what you guys were gonna do? How do how are these collaborations set up when you're working with others that are technically amateurs?

Christina Sage 25:00

With the amateurs, it's usually just natural. It's usually we call it gonzo going with the flow, just natural, just keep it authentic. Yeah, what you see is what's going on,

Chemistry, Dissociation, And Energy

Christina Sage 25:12

no script. I have done some collaborations where we, you know, we had like a little idea or something. We're like, okay, maybe we'll say this, or something along the lines of this. But with Jack and Jill, our streams have always been very, very um, very natural and they're very easy to work with, they're very, very chill, they're wonderful people. You know, they're they have a great approach to camming, and I think that's why they're so successful.

Nosy Neighbor. 25:41

And they've been doing it for a long time, and they've really evolved. I think some good, some bad. I think there's been a lot of trial and error on their part. I know that I think for a while they're looking for when they first started, they were doing more amateur, amateur people, and there just turned out to be a lot more drama and stuff like that. And now I think they're only doing it with other professionals like yourself, and so it gets a little bit more professional looking, which I miss some of the amateur stuff, but I really invite people to check out you know, you three, and if you can find their videos, it's very sensual, it's very visually different than a lot of other stuff that you see. There's one scene that you guys did where it almost looks like you're in a hospital room because the the camera is above you, and that was air for someone, yeah.

Christina Sage 26:35

That was a good one.

Nosy Neighbor. 26:36

That's a very interesting scene to watch and to be able to see kind of from that perspective of being above, looking down, and you're kind of laid out like again, it almost has like a hospital vibe to it just because of how you see you in the hospital shows. Is do you almost wish that you could put the genie back in the bottle and stay a cam girl, or has the professional stuff been enough incentive to that looking back that was warranted?

Christina Sage 27:12

That's a great question, and I think that there are so many positives and so many negatives that have come from mainstream. Um

Awards, Imposter Feelings, And Niche

Christina Sage 27:24

I do know for a fact that you know well I kind of entered this relation, uh this uh this uh this industry through the relationship because I you know I started dating somebody who is who was is working crew for uh one of the more professional directors in the porn world in Hollywood, in Hollywood, sorry, in um in Los Angeles. So and he does, you know, collaborations himself. So I became very familiar with people in the industry, and I will say that the characters are I've met some of the nicest people and some of the uh coldest, cruelest. I mean I've I've never experienced drama, I've never I've never experienced uh a community before. Uh I've always been on my own. Uh uh buddies, you know. I I have a very small circle of of civilian friends, but I've never been involved in something where everyone knew that doesn't mean that I didn't have friends growing up. I've always had a relationship. Not that they knew the like the the details, but they knew, you know, of him and I. And there was infidelity within the relationship, not on my part, but within like, you know, within the industry, like people from the industry. So there was drama, you know, and there was heartbreak, and there was this, you know, me embarrassing myself and just feeling like an idiot. And and so that's just more like personal drama. I've gotten a lot of mean, mean looks because uh my my ex-partner used to he used to like talk poorly about me to people, which is a little bit weird. Talk poorly about me to people within the industry, which is I think a little strange. I'm still trying to wrap my head head around it, you know, why you would do that to somebody you're dating. I understand doing that to an enemy, but not somebody you're dating. So I would I would never understand why I get these dirty looks, and you know, they were always from his friends and things like that. And I was like, well, am I the bad guy? Am I really all that bad? And you know, and it was just a lot of there was a lot of pain because I I'm not used to I'm not really used to being put on display in that sense. Sure, I'm a you know, I'm I put my body on display, but uh how do I put this? How do I word it? I've never been, you know, for example, I I smile at somebody who I think I'm friendly with, I'm acquainted with, and they give me a nasty foul look. You know, it's like that that feels so personal, that feels like a the true attack. And I've gotten that a lot in this industry. People are mean, but people are also very sweet. And I try not to be so focused on the negative, you know, I I try to focus on the good friends that I've made, the you know, lovely, interesting, quirky characters that they're there are scattered around the industry that I was fortunate to become acquainted with and friendly with. So yeah, but of course, everyone at an arm's length, I think, is uh more admirable than maybe a than you know, like clo closer than an arm's length, if that makes sense. Yeah. Uh uh. Yeah, you know what I'm trying to say. So I do. I hope that answered your question.

Nosy Neighbor. 31:36

It does. And how I mean, so much for I don't want to say that you're not regular, but for a lot of us, sex is corresponding with intimacy, uh, work, physical attraction, physical when it comes to the industry. I mean, even with collaborations, you can, you know, Jack and Jill can reach out to you, and you can say, I'm not interested, let's not do it. And you can still say that in the professional industry, but there's more incentives to not turn down a job. What is it like when you know, here's John, he's gonna play your stepdad, and he's gonna fuck you in 10 minutes, and you just met. How do you disconnect yourself or how what is your process for because to a lot of us that's not necessarily normal? Um, it sounds like a fun fantasy, but it's it's not normal to meet and then go, okay, this guy's gonna have his way with you in a few minutes, get ready. How do you approach that from like a mental aspect, or is it just business at this point where you're you're used to it and this is a performance, you're playing technically a character, and so it's kind of an out-of-body experience while using your body?

Christina Sage 32:52

Yeah, so that's that's a great question too. Um, I that's something I had to master. Uh, I am a person who very much like I think anyone else, you know, we I need to know the person first. I need to have a crush on the person first, in order for me to want to be sexually intimate with them. So what I do is I carry a lot of lube on me. Um, I do not naturally lubricate, you know, and sometimes I will lie and I'll say, oh, yeah, I know I have a problem getting wet. No, I'm just not aroused. I'm not aroused. It could be the most handsome guy. Um, if we don't connect, I mean, don't get me wrong, there have there has been, I can count on my hand. I can count on my hand, times where I did feel chemistry with the person I was having sex with. And it was wonderful. And sometimes you feel that in you can feel that instantly. You know, you look at them and they're, I don't know, they're

Keeping Personal Sexuality Alive

Christina Sage 33:58

I don't know, it's just their aurora, their energy mixed with maybe physical attraction, but that doesn't happen often. So and it that doesn't mean that I'm having a bad time, it just means that I need to be able to master the art of dissociation, which I think I have. What I what I do is I enter this, like this this space where I just think about I just think about things, you know. I'm just thinking about okay, what am I gonna do tomorrow? And I'm not present, I'm no longer present. And I know that sounds sad, but like think about a lot of people working nine to five jobs. You know, when I was working uh as a pharmacist technician, I would cry my eyes out driving to and from work every single day. I was exhausted. Uh when I worked as a bartender, I my boss was super cruel to me. He was, you know, he was awful, he was super unprofessional. He tried to take me to his house at like three o'clock in the morning when I was like, you know, I was still in university, it was very weird. He was he was a married man. It was just, you know, I've had very unpleasant, unpleasant job experiences prior to the porn industry. But I would say when it comes to your sexual energy, right? This is something that I do believe in. I think that there is an exchange of sexual energy with the with the person you're lying with, with the person you're laying with. You're you're entering their personal field, right? Whatever they're carrying, whoever they're having sex with, and whatever they've exchanged with those people, kind of like illnesses, but in the industry we test every two weeks for illnesses. So we're we're clear on that. We're very um we're very on top of that. But energy is not something that you can just block out. So there have been days that I do feel like I'm carrying a weight that doesn't belong to me. I am a hypersensitive person. I do feel like I am very um, I'm very empathetic, you know, like I I'm very, I can feel things a little bit too much, a little too deeply. I yeah, sometimes I just feel like I'm carrying a weight that doesn't belong to me, or sometimes I feel good. Sometimes I'm like, oh my god, that was such a pleasant experience. That person kind of like passed on something pleasant to me. But that could all be in my head too. I don't know. That's not something that's proven, that's just something that I believe in. So yeah, just my two cents.

Nosy Neighbor. 37:06

But nice. And wrapping things up, I just have a couple more questions. One of the big things is you were recently nominated for an AVN for newcomer, I believe. Is that correct? Correct. Tell us a little bit about that, and I'll include a link to your your voting page on your your little blurb. Uh, but tell us about how you found about that and what was that like?

Christina Sage 37:30

So I didn't know I was nominated for hottest studio newcomer and fave newcomer. So avn was hottest studio newcomer and then Xvis or XMA or I don't know what it is. See, I don't I don't know these things. I I've never been to a convention before. I had no idea I was nominated. Uh, somebody had to write me. They were like, by the way, congrats, congratulations on your nomination. I was like, what are you talking about? What is nomination? What's a nomination? And they were like, you were nominated for this, uh, for this, you know, in this category. And I go and I look and I'm like, there's no way. I I guess I have like a little bit of imposter syndrome where I don't feel like I, you know, I don't know. I like I deserve it because I see the girls that I'm I'm there with, I'm standing with, and I'm like, oh, these girls are way better performers than me. And you know, they've gotten a lot more jobs than me. And well, I I do live in a foreign country half of the time, but I don't know. I I just I think that realistically, I think that I wouldn't be mad at all if I didn't win these these uh these awards. I think that I I just really think that there are more deserving. Maybe I don't know if I'm being harsh on myself, but I think that there are more deserving performers who have been listed. And that's that. Yeah, but but I am still very grateful and very, you know, very happy that I was considered to begin with.

Nosy Neighbor. 39:16

I think in your defense, there might be other, you know, different women that you feel might be better, but you said it earlier that there's a niche for everyone. Maybe you're into tattoos, maybe you're into smaller breasts, maybe you're into bigger breasts, maybe you're into blondes, brunettes. And so I think a lot of people when they're going to different sites, they're skimming through and looking at what appeals to them. And so just because someone might look better in your opinion, uh, they might not be the niche for for everyone. And so I think that's what kind of makes porn nice is you could be, you know, big, beautiful woman that people are into that. You could be a thin petite woman, and people are into that. You can be heavily tattoos, you could be no tattoos, and they're into that. And so I think porn is like almost the ultimate unifier in in people. There isn't one set of beauty. I think we often feel like you know the bustier blondes are the more popular ones but i think there's a little bit for everyone there no i totally agree yeah that's a good point and wrapping things up and appreciate you for coming on what is i mean we have you as a performer we have you as you know the the cam girl what is sexuality like to you because is there a part of your sexuality that you keep to yourself are you how do you you know are you masturbating are you watching other porn how do you maintain some of your own sexuality and kind of keep that to be more personal right so so that is something that I do um I do struggle with because I you know I've I've had to make this my job and sometimes I just don't wanna I don't want to masturbate anymore and I I like for example recently I since this this relationship has ended and it ended for you know weird reasons um which had affected unfortunately my sexuality and I'm kind of in a place now where I'm trying to regain that regain that relationship with my body again and feel comfortable with my body and you know maybe not try to make room for my sexuality once again you know like maybe on a Saturday morning I'd say hey fuck it I'm not gonna I'm not gonna cam today and I'm just gonna focus on maybe masturbating this morning you know something like that I don't know I I think I need to figure out how to how to get there.

Christina Sage 42:07

I think I'm I think I'm gonna see a sex therapist I think that that would be if is is that a thing a sex therapist oh yeah yeah yeah I think I yeah I think I should see one because I I'm definitely struggling with that a little bit it's not affecting my life to the point of like oh my god I'm dying I'm so depressed I'm you know I'm suffering big time no of course not but it you know masturbating and having a maybe you know if I were to get into a new relationship with somebody uh sex is important you know and I want to make sure that that is that part of me is healed well that's important you can always email me I'm always here to listen uh final question does it does it ever get frustrating because everything you do is basically based around your body your social media is full of beautiful sexy pictures you had one gorgeous one in some lingerie that I don't even know how someone gets into all the intricacies of what you were wearing does it ever get frustrating because you can't really post a photo of you in a sweatshirt and sweatpants eating a a half a tub of ice cream going uh Saturday you know um I have a case of the blaz it you always have to kind of show off the body you always have to be so does that ever get frustrating well I will say on cam I am quite myself I I'm eating on cam. We're talking about whatever I want to talk about I I do feel like I I and you know what even with social media I think that the most successful girls are the ones

Authenticity, Image, And Being Known

Christina Sage 43:57

who do showcase who they truly are because I think that now we are starting to we want authenticity you know I think that it's it's so refreshing and I I feel like I should kind of change the direction of of my of my page and post more things of me dancing of me expressing myself of me you know being opinionated of me well not too opinionated but you know what I mean or me you know sweatpants hair tie children with no makeup on you know what I mean so I think that's that's a good thing because yes to answer your question it can be very frustrating to be seen desired but not known you know what I mean and yeah it's I think that people also tend to downplay I I mean I I I think that I'm I find myself conventional conventionally attractive right by Western standards. I'd still slightly above that but I mean that's a little bit downplaying that's very sweet of you to say um you know people tend to downplay uh you know struggles you you know Bo you have pretty pri privilege and you must not have you know any struggles in life and you got it easy and you know you're it's that's not true. It's not it's really not true. I feel like I I have been used quite a bit in romantic relationships. You know I have a lot for example in romantic relationships uh maybe for sex uh image status because it's a it's a status thing right you know to have a uh conventionally attractive girl by your by your side as a man it I just I I would like to be known and and loved for who I am and I actually have one more question if you don't mind me squeezing it in. Yeah sure just is listening to you you're a young beautiful woman and you have a wide fan base I assume just in the research that I have done

Fans, Boundaries, And Respect

Christina Sage 46:22

from 20 year olds to to 60 year olds when you're out in public or maybe you're doing like a avian thing or I know some people are going to the conventions and stuff like that does it is it like how do you how do you like to be talked to as far as from a fan base you know is it appropriate for a 50 year old I'm 51 to say like I enjoy your work I love getting off to you is that is that something that you're able to process in a that's flattering even though it's creepy kind of thing or how do you how do you prefer fans to interact with you online how should they be treating you or acknowledging your work without kind of crossing that line because you are a human you are a female you know how do you approach those things yeah I appreciate the question too um I think that I this has never happened to me where I've been approached I've never been to a convention before uh this is going to be my first one avenue coming up so I think that you know maybe like hey I jerked off to you and then the guy touches me and like it's in my personal space you know that would make me uncomfortable but if he's like you know if he playfully makes a remark yeah you know like I totally got off to you last night you know and then leaves it at that at that I can take a joke you know I can I'm pretty I'm easy I'm I'm not I don't take things too seriously um but with words if it gets disrespectful you know I think that I definitely do get very defensive with my line of work if people you know like men who will act as though they are above me even though they have laid with me before like while I was a cam girl while I was a porn star while I was a OnlyFans girl you know like you are my equal when you lay with me when you sleep with me. You know what I mean? So I I don't like that I I've I got that just the other day uh from an ex-boyfriend and that really pissed me off I was like you are nobody to speak but that's I think I'm digressing a little bit but um I think that personal space I don't like being touched I touch physical touch is not a love language of mine so never mind with a stranger I do not like being touched at all I'm definitely the one I give the lamest hugs the one armed hugs you know like but I'm friendly I'm very you know I'll I like to make people feel good I just don't like personal space being um and like yeah I don't like people in my space well Costina Stage thank you so much

Closing And Links

Christina Sage 49:27

for coming on I will link to your OnlyFans and your your voting I think most of it goes through January and uh I'll have to check you out on Chatterbait because I didn't fully know that you were on there regularly um which is a very interesting site if you haven't checked it out uh go check that out and then I'll also link to your OnlyFans so thank you so much for coming on and spending time with us. Thank you so much for having me. It was a pleasure